Thursday, February 25, 2010

Dogs

I'm into dogs...I'm into cats, too but I've become a dog lover since having obtained one back in 2005.  I've had them before but never really understood what it meant to be a dog lover and owner until 2005.  From the moment I brought my new puppy home...a small beagle I named Gracie Mai, I made just about every mistake you can make. 

Needless to say that my little pup went from balanced to a mess in just a few short weeks.  Too much cuddle time, we treated her like a baby, and too lap time turned her into an anxious, stressed out and fearful little girl.  It was only when I discovered Cesar Milan, the dog whisperer, did I get a clue as to how to rehabilitate her and train myself!  It took about 2 months of patience, love, discipline...for both of us, as consistency but my daughter and I managed to resolve most of her seperation anxiety.  She was peeing and pooping her in crate and screaming/barking/whining for hours! 

We got her neice, Lucy Bell 8 months later...we didn't make the same mistakes.

Since then I've found someone else whom I feel is very sharp when it comes to dogs, Earl Newland...the dog shaman.  He is a behaviorist more than a traininer and raises American Tundra Shepards...these dogs are only 1 or 2 crosses away from a wolf.  You have to be a strong pack leader for them or they will "eat your lunch."  Earl's latest blog post on dog parks echos my thoughts exactly.  I found them a hazardous place for small dogs especially as people and dogs run up to and harass them.  I've seen numerous small dogs...and big ones, ganged up on by bigger dogs too full of energy and therefore unbalanced.  I highly recommend reading his info.

No sleep but plenty of energy.

NIght before last, Feb. 24th, I barely slept.  I wasn't awake worrying or anything, I just found I couldn't sleep. Kept looking at the clock waiting for daybreak.  Almost got up around 4:30am but thought I'd be dragging by the afternoon if I did.  Finally got up at 6:30.  Had plenty of energy throughout the day.  That was unusual.  I normally have to take a nap in the afternoon if I don't sleep the night before.  Wonder what's going on?  Didn't feel I was downloading or anything...just wired. 

Yesterday a trainer was killed by a killer whale...right in front of a crowd!  A client sent me the url to Stuart Swerdlow's website. http://expansions.com/News.cfm   Stewart is saying that there was a bombardment of ELF waves over North America yesterday heightening feelings of depression and anger.  If so, that could trigger an already agitated killer whale.  I didn't feel any anger yesterday...or today but I did notice feeling a bit anxious...had to calm myself with soothing music and some yoga.  Anyone feel anything?

Monday, February 22, 2010

Stillness - the aftermath of activity

I'm sitting here at my favorite coffee shop on a Friday afternoon.  It was the first sunny day in a while and after being in the house working, I felt I needed to be out and around others.  Funny how that works sometimes...we just need human interaction.  Black Dog, the name of the coffee shop, draws an eclectic blend of customers.  There are college students, young professionals, older professionals and the terminally confused about who they are.  I must say, I find it a great place to people watch; one of my favorite pasttimes.

So, another reason I'm here is that I'm having one of those days when I don't want to do anything cause it feels like everything is still--as though waiting for something to form and take off.  It's been that way since I returned from the Conscious Life Expo.  I had been told that that expo would determine what happens next.  And though I've been through this before, back in 2003 again, right after the Conscious Life Expo, the stillness is still unnerving at times.  It triggers the fear that nothing will transpire even though something always has.  After all these years, I still find it hard to be still and wait.  Patience is something I have had to work at...very diligently!

Seems I'm not alone in the stillness...many others are there with me.  We are waiting, waiting for the next step to materialize.  I can just imagine all the guides busy connecting with each other, having meetings, discussing plans, many that will come to fruition a year or more in the future.  When I think back to all the amazing synchronicities I've experienced, and all the events that transpired, and the wonderful people who just so happened to show up at just the right time, I find it easier to be patient.  Experiences like those are easy to wait for.  I've got to remind myself to think of those when I find my patience wearing thin.

So where are you?  In a period of activity or are you in the stillness with me, waiting for our guides to prepare the next step?

Thursday, February 18, 2010

2010 Conscious Life Expo in Los Angeles, CA

The 2010 Conscious Life Expo was wonderful and well attended.  I don't know what the actual count was but it had to be around 10,000.  Perhaps it was the line up of notable speakers that drew so many people.  There was Zecharia Sitchin, Gregg Braden, Debbie Ford, Richard Hoagland, Dannion Brinkley, David Wilcock, Jean Houston and a host of others.

The energy of this expo was very high and the beautiful setting...the Hilton, which had been feng shuied--loved the crystals hanging from the chandelier above the foyer--only added to the feeling.  Of course, the wonderful sunny and warm southern California weather helped as well...especially for those of us from snowy areas.

It appears that the two main focuses for this conference were 2012 and Nibiru.  People seemed genuinely concerned about 2012 and what part Nibiru would play.

I began the conference with seemed to me to be a good omen.  I was at the buffet table for lunch on Friday when lo and behold Shirley McClaine walked up.  My 2.5 years living in LA had taught me to act cool and polite and not talk to or stare....it was hard though.  She was only a foot away from me!  When I turned to go back to my table, I walked right past none other than Zecharia Sitichin making his way, albeit very slowly--he's around 90 years old--to the salad table.  OMG!  They were having lunch together.  Isn't that something I thought....Shirley, the woman who had played such an instrumental role in the awakening of so many people including me, was learning about Nibiru! Gave me a warm feeling.

I had a lecture and 2 workshops this time, along with a seat on the 2012 Panel.  The panel came first, followed shortly after by the lecture and 1 of 2 workshops; all of them on Saturday.  Oh, I have to tell you about that. This panel was hosted by George Noory of Coast to Coast fame. Panelist were David Wilcock, Dannion Brinkley, Sean David Morton, David Childress, John Hogue, Christian Von Lahr and Richard Hoagland. I was the only female. There was a mix up about the panels--I was mistakenly placed on the Prophecy Panel instead of this one so it came as a surprise ot the men when I walked up and introduced myself before we all took our places at the table. I have to admit to having more than a few jitters, after all I was in the company of some big names in the industry.

With 8 panelist and some of them rather long-winded we only got through 2 questions about 2012.  The first was, what will happen in 2012?  The second was, will there be earth changes in 2012.  I answered the first one but after taking about an hour for the men to answer the second one, George Noory, the panel host went straight to questions.  I was okay with that because I felt that being the newbie in this group, less is more.

Fortunately 2 of the 4 audience questions were for me.  The second question was most relevant because I was able to explain my take on how movies are used to help train us to remember our collective galactic past along with how to make different choices for our future.  I went through the Matrix, the Terminator series and then the movie Avatar.  As I explained, the Matrix series was given to show us that we ended up caught in frequency fences, the Terminator series showed us what occurred when we created artificial intelligence that could outlive, out work and outthink us and how we handled it in the past.  And the Avatar movie was given to us to show us our potential future, a future we could choose if we embraced compassion.  The audience seemed to really get it...I was relieved.
Here's the link a clip from the panel discussion where I talk about the movies and the significance of Avatar:  http://sharing.theflip.com/session/3b96764faf09bbb4b4c8e3b8d1a58c9c/video/10704822
My thoughts about some of the men...Richard Hoagland sat on my left. He is what I would call...gallant. I really liked him. Sean David Morton was interesting...a bit intense. He took several hits from the other guys during the panel..as a result of his sometimes outrageous behavior--the one that immediately comes to mind is when he stood up and blew into a conch shell then told the audience that he had to blow his own horn since no one else would.  Then, he asked the audience indulge him for about 45 seconds while he gave his credentials, a list of predictions that did come true...it took about 5 minutes!  Sean speaks very fast and it wasn't long before the audience was on overload. 

David Wilcock was introduced next and instead of speaking of himself, he took the audience into a few moments of meditation to calm them down.  I have to say it was an excellent move and one that was greatly needed.  Subsequently Sean was the recipient of several barbs from the other men; don't think he was very happy about that. I really felt for him after a few of them, especially the one where David Childress jokingly said he'd like to see a list of all Sean's predictions that didn't come true.

David Wilcock tried to turn it into a panel discussion but didn't get very far. I really like David...we seem to have a warm connection and his girlfriend Aurora is such a lovely woman. I think that David and I click because we both intuitively sense the challenges each faces in putting ourselves out there as we do.
Dannion was in fine form keeping the audience laughing with his jokes about wanting to drive a spaceship. I always enjoy hearing him speak cause I know I'll walk away in a good mood. All joking aside, Dannion has a sweet side and his feelings are deep and evident when he talks of his hospice organization which I think is called, Twilight Brigade. Having died more than once he knows what awaits us and offering comfort to dying veterans is one way to assure them that the end is simply another beginning.

David Childress, who sat to my right was pretty hot...I really liked his energy....nuff said.

I had about an hour before my lecture, The Mystery of Nibiru Revealed.  I had already braced myself for the possibility that no one would attend because I was scheduled at the same time as Zecharia Sitchin.

There are moments in life that remain with us forever....I had one of those moments when I walked into the lecture room to find a packed. There were folks crowded into the back of the room, sitting in the aisle and on the floor around the stage. I had about 3 feet to walk in before I risked stepping on someone's hand or foot. What's funny is that as I was flying down the hall looking for my lecture room, I had glanced into that room and thought to myself...boy that must be a very interesting speaker cause they have a packed room.  What a surprise when my friend Michael Alpough grabbed my arm to pull be back saying, "Jelaila, that's your room, girl!"


I gingerly picked my way to the front trying not to step on any fingers or toes.  As I stood there waiting fore everyone to settle down, I felt awed and humbled.  I spoke of Nibiru and why the Nibiruans chose to disconnect our 10 DNA strands.  The questions were flying and before long it was over.  Michael shot some footage of the crowd.  I hope to be able to get it and put it up for you to see.

We had a full house for the workshop on DNA Recoding and Psychic Ability even though I was again up against Zecharia Sitchin.  Guess it was time for the Nibiruans' and their perspective to be heard, eh?  This workshop went very well and there is a video of it for sale on the Expo site at: http://www.consciouslifeexpo.com/

All in all it was a great conference and I felt that whatever the Nibirauns wanted to see occur, did so.  I was told that a lot depended on how it went and the connections made.  Holding my own on the 2012 panel and even recieving a compliment from George Noory and a warm handshake from Richard Hoagland seemed to be 2 of the connections that were needed.
My heartfelt thanks to three people who helped make this expo experience so wonderful.  Julie Dickey, Michael Alpough and Gary Thompson.  Julie flew from Austin to help me in the booth.  Julie kept me grounded and was a workout pal.  We spent happy moments drinking coffee each morning, sitting in the balcony overlooking the foyer at the Hilton.  Michael was my fun sponsor, ensuring that I remembered to have fun.  He was also my cameraman and like Julie an all around go to person.  Using his new Flip camera, Michael was able to capture footage and get people's testamonials.  He was also there to carry heavy boxes and just do whatever it took to make things go smoothly.  I'd love to be able to have both he and Julie with me wherever this work takes me.

Gary was there to help man the booth and I am so grateful for that.  He wrote his own book and was proudly selling it.  I was happy to be able to support him by giving him space in the booth.  I really admired the way he would answer people's questions with enthusiasm no matter how tired he was. 
So here I sit on Thursday morning.  I am still not sure what will come of it all and that's okay--I feel it is forming.  And just as back in 2003 when I reached the previous level--again at this expo--the next step will show itself.  Right now I'm just going to focus on what has become on the mainstays of this work--another Emotional Clearing workshop.  It will be here at my house in late March. 

I feel that there were many others at the conference who felt it was going to be pivotal to their next step.  Like me they too will carry on with what they have been doing until that next step shows itself.  As David Childress reminded us during the 2012 Panel, before enlightenment, chop wood and carry water; after enlightenment chop wood, carry water.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Full Moon Effects

Yesterday was one of those days that just leave you shaking your head.  Woke feeling on the verge of tears and that stayed with me most of the day.  A friend reported feeling very irritable.  It was a full moon last night and one of the brightest. 

Personally, I think the moon just exacerbated any feelings that needed to be expressed but were being suppressed.  I've ended my 9 month relationship with a wonderful man and have been struggling with it.  We were good together with, as he said, 80% of our relationsip working but the other 20% was the problem.  Normally, a couple can overcome such a small percentage, but not when it consists of things upon which a relationship's foundation is built.  I'm so missing that 80%.